My heart beating so fast
The sound of my breathing

My insecurity has caught up with me again.

Knowing what I am to him seemed so easy at the time
Almost comforting
Now, breathing slowing, heart hammering in my chest;
I'm not so sure

Not the only beauty in his eyes
He tells her secrety that she's gorgeous
That she's perfect

My breathing returns to normal now,
yet doubt is still burned into my mind

Mistrust is returning at an alarming rate
and I'm almost as alone as I was long ago;
When he did mistrust me
When there was another

Plunging back into the forest that had once consumed me seems so welcoming now

Although I may have found clearings in the past
this time it seems I may be forever wandering through this forest of hate
forever searching for those small clearings of light